I think love is underrated, overrated, hidden, forward, and everything in between. I’m 20 years old. I’ve had two “somewhat” relationships, and only been in love once (with neither of the two.)
What if you base your whole life upon love? Every decision you make, everything you say or do, every dream you have, all with the intent of love on your mind? Sometimes I find myself avoiding the topic, and think I really only went into Film and Television to fall in love. Because that’s the only way I saw it beforehand. A selfish decision, but understandable with simply being human, yes?
I guess I could be in a relationship if I wanted to (and I do) however, I like the idea of love more than I usually like the person, therefore with the possible outcome of extinction of any sort of relationship in the end. It’s not fair to most of the people. Shouldn’t the love of your life be right under your nose? What if you make that exception for the people who are right under your nose, fully knowing they aren’t the love on your life, but you’re willing to take a chance, although you know what the outcome in the end will be? It’s a selfish choice. Yes. And that’s why I don’t do it. That’s why I’m 20 years old and single.
I’m so completely picky, and so completely open when it comes to love. I tend to fall for anyone, any shape, personality, looks, whatever. However, in my mind I am very particular.
I guess I don’t mind if I don’t settle down until I’m 30, as long as it’s with the right person, and I’m not completely single for the 10 year span between now and then. My freshman year, a psychic told me I would be engaged between the ages of 24-26. Married? She did not say. Only engaged. I’m concerned for several reasons. Am I not going to get married? Is something going to happen? Also, that’s 4-6 years away, which means I have to surely KNOW and DATE the person for 1 or 2 years. Which makes its 2-4 years away. Doesn’t that sound crazy? I think so.
To do a complete 160, but get something off my chest, I’m moving into my first very own, by myself apartment in about 3 weeks, and I want to buy a lot of things. I don’t have the money to do this. And my family has a pervious history with spending problems. So I need to sort out the things I want, the things I need, and the things I really REALLY want.
-Couch (want/need)
-Flat Screen TV (REALLY want/don’t need)
-Keyboard (want)
-Round Chair from Pier 1 (want)
-Wind chimes (want)
-Outside Chair (I don’t care, I’m getting this. I NEED it. I have a balcony now!)
-Candles (Need. For my mental stability)
-Energy Saving Natural Light- Lightbulbs (Need. See above)
-Frames for my posters (Need)
-Rugs (want)
-Curtains (want)
-Cable (want/don’t really need, but if I get a tv then yes)
-iPod speaker (want)
-Vegas show tickets (want)
That feels better since it’s off of my chest. Your opinions?
On both, how I don’t need these things, and the love situation?
Xoxo, Lindsay
