My name is Lindsay Johnston, I am twenty years old, by the time I graduate I will be nearing 200,000 dollars in debt, I live by myself, and I am completely and surreally inspired, scared, awed, sad, excited, curious, and a number of other adjectives.
I understand I have not written in awhile. Within the past 2 ½ weeks I’ve driven half way across the country to see the big land of Texas, I’ve begun the long process of my Senior Project, I’ve started Spring Quarter (Psych, Life Drawing, and Narrative Directing) and I’ve moved into my first, very own apartment. Give and take a picture frame or two, everything is now in it’s right place for another year, and then it’s off to the unknown again, but lets not talk about that until then, shall we?
Yes, I understand it might get lonely, but I’ve seen more people in these past few days living on my own than normally. I understand I am very comfortable being a house hermit, and I will not let that side get the best of me. It’s odd walking around the apartment, knowing that no one else will be walking around. Do I want to eat dinner on the balcony, or the couch, or the counter, or the floor? Should I leave my blinds open or closed? Where should I position these coke cans in this entirely empty fridge that is completely my own, and I can place anything anywhere.
I can throw a party, I can dance around the entire space, I can watch Felicity, or listen to 80’s. I can laugh, or cry, or scream, or be creative.
It’s the perfect space for the next year. College flies by doesn’t it? I have one year left, and I am making sure it will be the most productive, inspirational, moment-enjoying, gratifying, beautiful year yet.
I have decided to do a senior film. Why? Why not. I often find myself questioning why I am here, or why I am in film, or what I want to do. But sometimes it just all makes sense, and it all feels right. Questions aside, I want to make something I know can be awesome.
You’re beautiful. Did you know that?
-Lindsay
